growing.

After so much time of holding myself together for the sake of my self (isnt it funny how we do that) I finally let myself just be. It's been five months and I'm still happy. No stress, no worries and no fear of pain. I mean sure I have gained three boys (I know right that should on it's own make me crazy lol) but there is balance. I have been so blessed through these past few years with my girls to meet some amazing ppl that will always be apart of our lives (be it through fond memories or through contact they will never fade) and as a child and an adult I feared not being good enough... Silly really I know but we all have our demons. I found letting go of that has given me a self worth, and more importantly a happy life style with my daughter's. Every single day I see them become more like me and I think "gosh women what have you done?" But I smile and I say to myself "I vouldnt be more proud" an all of this simply because of a little change. Blessed have I been to be taught such a lesson in time to make a difference in the people I loves lives. An blessed am I to see myself for the person I am not the person I wished I could be.(that I was all along)